Monday note-V-Day

My other half and me, we never celebrate Valentine's Day, as he is so against it, but I always believe that you should celebrate de one u love not only on de Feb 14th, or on her/his birthday,
or even during ur anniversary alone. Love should be celebrated every day with ur partner, ur family and frens. Life is too short for us, thus celebrating ur loved ones only on those special occasions, like once or twice a year alone, is dreadfully insufficient.

Why do I say so? I went to a wedding last night in Taman Tun. Sharing the same table with us are a bunch of Am's frens. Most of them are married, some are singles. I was de only lass there. Everybody was so busy throwing jokes and updating on their lives, as they haven't seen each other for ages. But amidst of all the jokes and laughter, I did notice there is this one particular guy who is so reserved, just staring at everybody. He tried to smile at me. A weak smile I suppose. Something is not right about him. But I just don't know why.

Just to be polite, I slowly smiled back at him. Now I remembered this guy. I recognized his face because he used to study in MMU too. But he was alone. I thought he was married too. Maybe his wife couldn't make it to the wedding.

So, I just ignored him during the wedding and trying my best to concentrate on the bride and groom. But the tasty prawns and de fatty chicken make it difficult for me to put my finest focus on the happiest couple.

After the wedding, on our way back home, I ask Am about dat guy.
Looking at me, he said "His wife is sick, very sick"
"Sakit apa?" I asked. The face of his wife started to emerge on my mind. Yes, they are quite close in MMU, and they were even together long before Am and I met.

Am quietly said to me, "Wife die kene kanser. That's why he came alone. He even postponed his part time courses becoz he wants to take care of his wife."
I was shocked. I couldn't say a word to it.

They've been married for less than 2 years. His wife is just a year older than me. They are just about to start their lives like we did. I cannot imagine how this guy feels.
I felt sorry for him. I felt like I just want to call him and said how sorry I was to hear about his wife. But I don't know him that well, so it will be rather awkward to give him a call out of nowhere and say that.

Both of us sit silently in the car. Normally we will sing joyfully to the songs from the radio, but last night we were like ghosts.

When we are about to reach home in Klang, Am said to me,
"I want to grow old with you. Kalau kita dah tua nanti, kalau awak pergi dulu, mesti saya sedih tinggal sorang2. I will remember your cooking, the smell of your smelly armpit, your perfume..semualah. Mesti sedih masa tu"

I turned around and looked at him and I cried.
"Awakkkk sedihnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. That's de saddest thing u ever said to me for all this while Ive known u". His words really cuffed me.
Yes, Im still thinking all of the above until today while I'm in the office.
I called him 5 times today just to say Sorry if I did anything wrong to him all this while. I never called him more than 3 times on a normal working day. Sometimes I didn't call him at all. But today I did.
For my dear frens who r celebrating Valentine's, happy celebrating it.
And for those of u who r not celebrating it like me, no worries LOVE still or will come softly.